Model Misbehavior

The Big Migration

noreply@blogger.com (Kris Madison) — Sun, 28 Jun 2009 21:30:00 +0000

Over the last couple of months I've been emailing & chatting with my dear friend Trixie about moving my sites over to her burgeoning porn empire. Moving all the files & filling out the forms & getting everything up & running smoothly is taking longer than I anticipated, especially since I can't devote my full time attention to it, but there will be a big announcement coming soon!

I'm still taking classes & painting up a storm and, as one might expect, I'm flat broke! hehe In this economy, most folks are feeling the pinch & you can imagine that starting out a new business as an artist plus going to school is a little daunting. My sites have never made much money, but at this point every little bit helps. Plus I really miss my web friends! I've met so many awesome people over the years from doing cam shows to fantastic members to the other web girls that have been my colleagues & it's really tough to just walk away.

As Ronnie pointed out in the comments when I mentioned dipping my toe back into the porno waters months ago, this does mean I'm going back on my word & will be seriously pissing off my family. I'm still conflicted about that because I love my family & they've always been so supportive of me, but we simply have different value systems. Naked bodies are not bad. Sex is not wrong. The desire to watch other people having sex? Also not wrong! Sure, the porn industry has taken these totally natural impulses & produced some pretty warped shit as a result, but that doesn't make ALL porn inherently evil. That's like banning all music because you don't like Marilyn Manson. It just doesn't make sense.

The older I get (oh & I'm holding at 29, in case anyone is wondering), the more I realize I just need to do what's going to make me happy in the long run. In the long run, I want to be a painter. In the short run, I need money to buy supplies, to submit to galleries & shows, to keep a roof over my head. And in the long AND short run, it doesn't make sense for me to sit in a cubicle for 40 hours a week & then muster the energy to take night classes & squeeze in some painting time.

So it is after much consideration that I'm going to be bringing my sites back. Yay! I'm not sure how much I'll be able to update since I'm still super busy & have very little privacy or space to shoot in, but I'm thinking I may focus more on the video side. It's so much easier to pull the video camera into bed with me & record some...ummm...intimate moments than it is to set up the tripod & remote & lights to snap pictures.

Stay tuned for more! I'm going to be offering a great deal for my old members too. I've missed you guys! :)

Alive and Painting

noreply@blogger.com (Kris Madison) — Sun, 08 Mar 2009 04:11:00 +0000

Hey gang! I'm still alive & kicking and figured it was about time I gave you a little update, especially after I received so many wonderful responses from my Big Announcment post.

I'm still taking art classes & really loving it. I've sold a few paintings plus lots of little things, like prints & postcards. I really can't complain because I know it takes most successful artists years to build up their name, build a body of work, develop their own style & so on...but that doesn't exactly pay the rent, now does it? :)

So as a starving artist who would prefer NOT to lose her booty completly, I'm going to be redirecting my KrisMadison.com links over to my old KCat Club archive at Amateur Reality.

If you were a member before, you've probably seen all of those pics & videos already. I can't promise I'll have time to do regular updates again (though I am LOVING not dealing with all the tech support & hacker issues anymore), but if you want a Kris fix, that's where I'm at! *smile*

For my webcam fans, I may start doing shows again on the Camz network. I probably won't have a regular schedule, but painting supplies are expensive and I could definitely use some extra cash these days (couldn't we all?). I think the Camz system will notify you when I'm on if you do want to chat with me.

Hope you're happy & healthy & know that I love you all!
*kisses*
Kris

The Big Announcement

noreply@blogger.com (Kris Madison) — Sun, 30 Nov 2008 23:59:00 +0000

I know this post has been a long time coming & I do apologize for leaving everybody hanging. It was partly due to the circumstances of my major life upheaval and partly due to me honestly not knowing what to say, how to say it and not ready to believe any of it is "real" anyway. But I'm getting ahead of myself...

Let's start with September - I went back to school. Art school, to be more specific, and I'm absolutely loving it. It's challenging and exciting and for the first time in a really long time, I feel like I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing.

I'm sure that sounds cheesy, but starting to paint again after setting it aside for so many years felt like suddenly remembering who I am, like an amnesia patient flooded with recognition. I've only been back at it seriously for 6 months or so and already when I try to remember a time in my life when I wasn't a painter, it feels so foreign. It seems like a lifetime ago.

Though this is something I've wanted to do for ages, I'd always put the idea of becoming an artist into the "silly dream" pile. Rather suddenly this fall a scholarship opportunity of sorts fell into my lap and I made the quick decision to go for it. Unfortunately, one of the strings of the scholarship is that I needed to quit posting naked pictures of myself on the internet. Immediately. As in, delete all traces.

I'm not sure what to do with the site that has brought so many wonderful people into my life and been a source of so much fun, excitement and yes, at times, frustration. I'm not ashamed of anything I've done here or of my time spent in the adult industry, but I do feel like it's time to move on. And yes, that's scary!

I've been getting signs for a good long while now telling me that porn and I are no longer a good match. This year has been filled with heaps of problems that have been out of my control: Pro Adult shutting down without paying anyone, my server getting hacked leaving me with a $900 bandwidth bill, miscommunication with my cam company not paying me, constant problems with a server move that should have been simple, my landlord/living situation...you get the picture. Every turn seemed like there was another sign telling me this just. isn't. working.

As I get older, it's also really nice to be shifting to a career where more experience is a *good* thing. The older I get > the more I paint > the BETTER I get at my job. In any stripe of modeling (or acting) where your looks are your product, the older you get, the less work you're going to get. Your product is essentially rotting.

It doesn't matter if I work hard to become a better model, a better web designer, a better photographer - I'm still getting older day by day. Instead of that being a positive, with age comes wisdom kind of thing (the way it actually feels to me, for the record), in this business it's a negative.

I know the MILF/mature niche is a popular one and I'm sure I could keep getting naked for money for another 20 years. Maybe more. There's a part of me that would love to see where my site could go as I get older. I *do* feel more attractive and sexually confident now than ever before. The idea of one day advertising myself as a 40 year old hottie who yes, IS still sexy and refuses to "dress her age" is enticing. But you're never going to escape those, "She looks really good. For her age." comments. And as with anything in porn, when you start trying to cater to a specific niche, it becomes ONLY about that one thing to the exclusion of any kind of healthy balance.

For a long time, it has not felt healthy to me to put so much emphasis on my appearance. When I'm dressing up to go to a party or something, I feel totally confident. But when I start looking at high rez photos of myself, blown up larger than life size, I notice every single little line or pimple or dimple of cellulite. Things that other women don't notice at all, I'm forced to stare at every time I want to edit a new set of pics. I'm sure other women still notice that they're gaining a little weight or that they're getting older, but unless you're a model or an actress, it's your vanity, not your livelihood.

On top of all that, obsessing about my appearance? Is really boring. I loathe sitting in the beauty salon flicking through retarded "women's" magazines waiting for a stylist to finish blow drying my hair. Hate it. I'd rather do yoga or ride my bike than do crunches. I'd rather do just about anything than have fake nails adhered to the tips to my fingers with surgical glue so that I can't type, dial a phone or pick my nose properly.

Even so, closing my site is still a tough decision. It's not the money; with the amount of time & money I've put into it, I don't think this site ever paid me more than minimum wage. No, if it had been about the money I would've quit years ago when the internet tide really started to shift. Running this site has meant so much more than that; getting to be my own boss, being part of a subculture of independent thinkers and explorers, meeting amazing people from all over the globe, doing something naughty and exciting and different. All of my 20s were spent involved in the adult industry in some capacity. It's a part of who I am.

While I'm thrilled to see the next chapter of my life play out, I can't definitively say that I'm done, I quit, it's over. I'm not ready to say goodbye. All of my friends are in the adult industry! Working in a taboo industry and having few friends that I could "come out" to has been isolating for so many years. It sucks to start over again and feel even more isolated.

And so, all of that, if you're still reading (hi Trixie!) is why I've been hesitant to say anything yet. (Well, that and the fact that I've been insanely busy with school and trying to be a painter and sell my work etc. etc.)

Since I really don't have the time to shoot any new stuff or do updates even if I wanted to, the site is closed to new members. If you're an existing member your password should still work. I don't want to delete everything, like I was never here, but I'm not quite sure what to do with it either. Thoughts and suggestions are welcome!

Update

noreply@blogger.com (Kris Madison) — Fri, 12 Sep 2008 20:50:00 +0000

A huge thank you is in order for all of the kind comments and emails I got after my last post. Sometimes I don't know what to say when I hear that a friend/blogger is having a hard time, but just seeing notes saying that me and Kiero were in someone's thoughts helped put a smile on my face. I'll have to remember that even if I don't know *what* to say, just saying *something* is often enough.

Kiero is still limping and definitely not 100% back to her normal self, but she's doing MUCH better. I haven't heard one of those gut-wrenching yelps for a few days now and she's been coming out to join me on the couch in the evenings. She's starting to put a bit of weight on her bad leg too. Hopefully this means it was just a muscle tear or sprain.

The one good thing that came out of this is I found a wonderful new vet. When I took her in Saturday morning, I went to our usual vet at their 9 a.m. opening time. The receptionist was just opening up, but much to my dismay, the vet wasn't coming in at all. I don't know why they're open at all on Saturdays if the vet isn't working. Do they really sell enough dog food to warrant it? I guess.

Anyway, I ended up taking Kiero to a different vet 5 or 6 blocks up the street. She was absolutely wonderful and phoned yesterday to check in on how Kiero was doing. I would've been impressed if the receptionist or one of the vet techs had called us for an update, but the vet herself? Wow! Totally impressed. I think she'll be my new regular vet for both dogs.

Server update: all of the content is supposed to be transferred over now, but I haven't been able to check it yet because I don't think the password stuff is set up. I'm not sure if the host company does this or if CCBill needs to do it, but hopefully we'll have all the bugs worked out this weekend and I can get back to normal. And update with some new stuff!

Weathering the Storm

noreply@blogger.com (Kris Madison) — Sun, 07 Sep 2008 20:54:00 +0000

Hello my little sweet peas! I've been having the craziest week that feels like the only thing left to happen is for my house to burn down. Knock on wood!

My site was hacked and a couple of member passwords were posted on a bunch of forums. Basically over the next few days, hundreds of people were downloading my entire site which means that my bandwidth charges went through the roof. My hosting company is charging me $963 more this month ON TOP of what I already pay for hosting. *cry*

I did cry actually. I stomped and cried and then threw myself into action trying to find somewhere to move my site. There is no way I can pay $963, so I'm scrambling to move my site to a new host before the old host pulls the plug on me. That's been taking up the bulk of my time this week, trying to get all of my movies and photo sets moved over to a new server, fighting with tech support, just generally fighting.

Phew. I'm exhausted. And go figure...2 days ago I got walloped with a horrible cold. I've been sleeping lots, drinking my OJ & trying not to overdose on Tylenol Sinus. My throat is all closed up and everything in my body aches.

Just as I was waiting for the locusts to come - Kiero, my lovey dovey super sweet love of my life, got hurt. I'm not sure exactly what happened, but we were going to the leash free dog park & she hopped out of the car, onto the grass & started limping. I looked at her paw to see if she had a thorn or stepped on glass or something...right away she started shrieking, the most horrible doggy yelp that stabs right through my heart.

She's been limping since Friday and as soon as I try to pick her up, she SCREAMS in pain. She can't get comfortable in her bed (or my bed). She keeps trying to lay down, but then is in pain so sits up again. I took her to the vet first thing in the morning on Saturday and the vet did a thorough check of her whole leg, her back, her shoulder and armpit, even her neck. Apparently neck pain can often show up as leg pain since it sort of shoots right down their paws.

Since the vet couldn't figure out what was wrong with her, we're hoping it's just a muscle pull. She's on pain meds for the next few days, but if she's not showing improvement by Monday, I'm supposed to take her back & that's where it gets really scary. If it's not a simple muscle problem, then it could be a tumour that's pushing on a nerve & causing the pain. *cry cry cry*

I don't know what I'm going to do. I keep praying to see some improvement because I'm sooooo not ready to let go of my baby girl yet. Seeing her in pain like this and not being able to do anything to help her is pure torture. And now I'm crying again!

OK...back to you guys! The positive upswing of all this is once my site is fully moved over to the new server it should be BETTER. It should be faster, have tons of space for adding lots more movies and I should have good tech support that can handle all of these kind of silly problems so I can just focus on making movies and chatting and YOU!

So. Hopefully I've weathered the storm and it'll be blue skies for the rest of...for the rest of my life! It can't get any worse, can it? Yikes. :)

Riding Dorky

noreply@blogger.com (Kris Madison) — Sat, 23 Aug 2008 19:49:00 +0000

As promised, there's me looking dorky in my pink bike helmet. I hate wearing a helmet at all, but since I'm not a fan of getting tickets and I'm bound to take a spill at some point, better safe than sorry, right?

My dad boxed up my old bike a few months ago and I've been riding it pretty much everywhere ever since. Granted we've had fantastic weather and I haven't been stuck in the rain yet, like I will be all winter, but I'm really loving the way the world looks from a bike. Mundane chores like picking up groceries or returning library books are pure joy when I get to feel the wind whipping across my face instead of sitting in traffic. I hate driving, I really hate being stuck in traffic and I really *really* hate circling around looking for parking. All of the things that get my blood boiling on a daily basis are removed when I'm out on my bike instead. I love it.

And yeah, it's worth looking like a dork.

Funny mom quote of the day

noreply@blogger.com (Kris Madison) — Fri, 01 Aug 2008 18:30:00 +0000

I'm thinking about taking my nephews to Crankworx in Whistler ~~next month~~...waitaminute...this month! How did it get to be August already? Zoinks!

I don't know why I'm thinking about doing this especially on a day like today when I'd put the crank in Crankworx. I hate children. I hate driving. I really hate long drives with yappy children in the backseat, wandering around crowded festivals where bottles of water cost 6 bucks then getting back into the car and driving some more. Plus gas has been so reasonably priced lately. I've filled up my car TWICE this week. Guess why? Because I've been super busy and doing lots of running around? Nope! I work from home, silly! I've had to fill up twice because gas has been fucking siphoned out of my motherfucking car TWICE this week.

Do they still sell locking gas caps, btw? I remember a girlfriend of mine had a locking one on her old VW Rabbit. I predict they're about to make a comeback.

Anyway, my nephews are into mountain biking, I haven't been to Whistler since my grade 12 ski trip and clearly I could use some karma points. As I'm telling my mom about this & wondering aloud if I should just get a hotel room so I don't have to do all the driving on one single day she says, "Oh you'll never be able to get a hotel room! The Olympics start next week!!"

Ummm...the Olympics that are in China? Yeah, I can see how easy that would be to confuse with the winter Olympics that happen in Vancouver. Two years from now.

Finding Balance

noreply@blogger.com (Kris Madison) — Thu, 31 Jul 2008 23:07:00 +0000

I haven't been blogging much this summer, partly due to the ease of updating my Twitter page and partly a result of not having much worth blogging about. How much more can I say about apartment hunting? It's boring, it sucks & no, I still haven't found anything. I'd like to find something that ticks off at least 1 or 2 of the following:

- cheaper
- in a better area
- with more space
- with more sunlight

Every place I've looked at that has a pro (cheaper, for example) also has major cons (bad area, far away from the water, fugly). I continue to work Craigslist and continue to be spammed by Christian missionaries working in Africa who are happy to let me rent their 2 bedroom penthouse for only $1200/month as long as I courier my deposit to them directly. In Africa. Then they'll promptly send me the keys. Woohoo!

The other major time suck lately has been a much more positive one - making art. I started a painting class at the end of June and I've been really enjoying it. I have homework each week, plus I like to paint for myself too, so my kitchen table is usually covered with painting stuff as are my hands and elbows. Somehow I always manage to lean into my palette with my elbow!

I realize there are plenty of folks who follow my blog to see what I'm up to, more as friends than fans of my naked booty. There's a lot of crossover in those categories too since fans of my naked booty often want to see the whole picture of my life. After many years online, I have to say that it feels really good to have a new passion that is entirely unsexy, unrelated to the net. I'm enjoying keeping a part of myself *all* to myself instead of oversharing and considering every interest a potential marketing angle for my site. I like being able to step away from my computer and fully immerse myself in something else without any of the nagging I should really be doing _______.

Of course the tasks I should be getting done are piling up, but for the first time I don't feel stressed or overwhelmed by any of it. I'm looking forward to doing new shoots and videos instead of berating myself for not updating as often as I'd like to. Taking a break where I let my mind be totally consumed with something else feels restorative in a way that no holiday ever has for me. Even in the most beautiful of locales, I end up kicking myself for not being able to get a shoot in or not taking advantage of a great hotel room.

This probably sounds incredibly obvious to some of you; balance between work and non-work activities is a no brainer to most people. For people who share so much of their lives online that separation is a lot blurrier. I'm glad I found my way.

Kryztal Red's Sexy Legs

noreply@blogger.com (Kris Madison) — Thu, 17 Jul 2008 21:54:00 +0000

Click for full gallery

No luck on the apartment hunting yet, but I did have some luck hunting for sexy legs photos courtesy of the vivacious Kryztal Red. Kryztal's site has been around forever; I remember chatting with her and her hubby on an old amateur webmaster forum years ago. I'm always delighted to rediscover sites I'd forgotten about, especially since so many of them close up shop and let their URLs redirect to generic link lists.

I was surfing some leg and stocking sites today to get ideas for future shoots of my own when I found this hot gallery of Kryztal in black pantyhose.

Click for full gallery

If I'm going to be moving soon, I really need to clear out my closets, so a shooting spree is in order with all of the shoes, hose and outfits I'd rather not cart to a new place. I have such a hard time letting go! A girl never knows when she'll need a pair of chunky wooden heels or another fishnet bodysuit. Even once I've taken pictures in something, I still have a hard time getting rid of it. What about cam shows? What if I get a chance to shoot in a different BETTER location and can re-do that outfit? I know it's silly since the most likely "what if" scenario is what if I go shopping and buy MORE lingerie? Where will I put it??? Time to let go and make space!

Apartment Hunting

noreply@blogger.com (Kris Madison) — Wed, 16 Jul 2008 21:40:00 +0000

It's a beautiful day outside and I think I'm going to get off my computer for a bit to enjoy the sunshine. I feel like I've been chained to the dungeon that is my office working on a mainstream project (ie. no boobies) and constantly refreshing Craigslist for apartment rentals. I need to find a new place to live in a safe, quiet area that takes dogs and isn't ridiculously expensive. You wouldn't think this would be such a tall order, wouldja?

I'm starting to look at moving way out in the boonies, but then that kind of defeats the whole purpose of moving to the coast. Right now I live close enough that I can ride my bike to the beach. If I move somewhere more affordable, it will be at least a 30 minute drive (depending on traffic) & I know I just won't do it. At least not on a regular basis like I do now. I love being able to throw the dogs in the car and head down for only an hour. If it takes me an hour to get there & back? It will have to be an *event* to make it worth doing. And if I don't do any of the things that make living here worth living here, I might as well move back east where rent is half the price and I have family. *sigh*

I'm not quite ready to give up yet because I do really love living near the water, near the amazing forests and hiking trails. I love the climate, even our rainy winters. Hopefully the perfect place will come up today, with a sunny space for my painting studio, a patch of grass for the dogs to run around and in a friendly neighborhood. Or I'll start making a LOT more money.

Play With Me

noreply@blogger.com (Kris Madison) — Mon, 07 Jul 2008 21:01:00 +0000

Join now to download the full length movie

A new movie is up and ready for members and this one? Is a doozy. First of all it came in at a whopping 18 minutes and instead of editing it down into parts or deleting some stuff, I decided to just let the whole thing play out exactly as I'd filmed it. I start off by talking about my adventures in camming and go from there, teasing the camera in my short lace dress, showing off my legs in stiletto strappy sandals and eventually getting naked, hoping you're doing the same (strappy sandals notwithstanding).

Since the video came out at close to 150 MBs, I decided not to offer 2 different versions, but I think the 640 X 480 size is plenty drool-worthy. You'll have to watch and let me know! *hehe*

Curves in Lace

noreply@blogger.com (Kris Madison) — Wed, 25 Jun 2008 22:03:00 +0000

New photos are up for KrisMadison.com members (click here to get your membership now) of me wearing a sexy brown lace dress and showing off my curves. Lots of legs and booty shots in this set.

Like this sexy ass pic peeking out from below my skirt, for example:

Update

noreply@blogger.com (Kris Madison) — Wed, 25 Jun 2008 00:35:00 +0000

Gah! How did it get to be summer already? I'm feeling totally overwhelmed and walloped by money/work stuff, family drama & a household that just added 2 new members (without decreasing my own rent one penny, for the record). I'm scrambling to stay on top of everything and really wish I had a helper. Someone to take photos and videos of me or do all the photo/video editing would be a dream. A webmaster that could help me take care of all the site stuff so I could just focus on replying to emails and doing new shoot requests? Heaven! Ahhh...but I'm dreaming.

Since there is just one of me, I've been reading all of your emails, but have been slack on getting the replies sent out. I did get a chance to shoot today though & I think you're really going to love the video. Lots of dirty talk!

I'll be busy editing pics tonight and hopefully get the video rendering before I go to sleep. I better brew some more coffee...in for a long night!

Mama Needs (to pay for) a New Pair of Shoes!

noreply@blogger.com (Kris Madison) — Mon, 16 Jun 2008 18:29:00 +0000

I had a lovely visit with my girlfriends AmberLily and Tasty Trixie last week, a Sex & the City slumber party so we could watch the movie together and then rehash all the things we loved and hated over brownies. It was excellent and exactly the kind of girl time I needed living in a house with far too much testosterone. The drive was smooth, made the ferry on time and even got to see dolphins swimming alongside us. Wonderful!

In my holiday happiness, I may have accidentally blown my budget however. I couldn't resist the half price sale at the Vans store and again got suckered into the cheap prices at Forever 21. Even when everything is on sale, walking out with bags of new clothes? Adds up. Plus I had to buy a bunch of new art supplies for the painting class I'm starting next week. So until I can rake in the big bucks as an artist, I'll be doing some performance art on cam!

Tuesday morning is the cut off time for us cam girls to submit our payout requests to the folks at Camz, so if you're looking for the biggest selection of girls to chat with, Monday is probably the best day. I've been refreshing the page since I woke up and there has at least one full page of girls, most looking quite bored and none in private shows. And this is exactly why you should work your ass off BEFORE you go on holiday. ;)

I'll be hanging out with the rest of my girls today trying to do a few more private shows before payday. My profile is KrisMadison if you feel like swinging by!

My Juices Are Flowing, Just Differently

noreply@blogger.com (Kris Madison) — Fri, 06 Jun 2008 09:14:00 +0000

One of the downsides of running a nude website and writing a blog from the perspective of a nude model are the times (like right now) when you really don't feel sexy. I'm sure I still look sexy enough and I certainly still feel horny, I just haven't felt particularly excited about getting naked lately. Or posing for the camera. Or writing about it.

One might jump to the conclusion that my lack of enthusiasm has something to do with not feeling good about my body or the weight I've gained. I was bummed to discover that most of my summer shorts are too tight to fit comfortably, but really? That's more annoyed that I need to go shopping than anything else. I've had some really lovely comments about my added curves (thank you!) and even when I look at my thighs and think about how much BIGGER they look, how much ROUNDER my hips seem, it's with an odd sense of awe - like I'm looking at someone else or some strange object. I have none of the typical body issue stuff going on (as in, "I feel so fat & disgusting I want to puke!"), which is really really cool.

I've been hesitant to write about the way my weight gain has been affecting (or not affecting) me because it feels sooooooo teenage girlie and pathetic. I've probably only put on a grand total of 10 or 15 pounds since Christmas. Most people wouldn't even notice. The ones who don't see me naked, that is. ;) But it is rather interesting, to me at least, to watch my body change and feel the changes in the fit of my clothes, under my fingers.

Before my fingers get distracted...part of what's been keeping me away from posting here and creating new photos to share has been the stirring of other passions, both sexual and non. On the non-sexual side, my creative juices have been flowing; I've been drawing, painting, sewing - making things! It feels great. I feel totally alive in a way that I haven't in a really long time. Running my own site has always held a great element of creativity that I've enjoyed, from playing with fetishes to the photography and video editing to the graphics and site design. But all of that is still centered around sex. For 6 years now (maybe 7?) my work and my life has revolved around sex. It's been incredibly refreshing to do something that has absolutely nothing to do with the porn industry. And when those other juices start flowing? Well, I just plug in my webcam!

I started doing private webcam shows again a couple of weeks ago and have been really enjoying the instant gratification that they allow. Unlike with setting up a shoot for my website, private cam shows don't require me to come up with the idea or theme. I'm a willing participant, of course, but I have no idea what the next play session will bring. It's so much fun to discover the naughty fantasies my private cammers want to act out with me. And when we're finished, I'm also finished. There's no uploading or editing or batching or FTPing. Done!

Don't worry - I'm not done making movies or shooting new photos. While doing all the prep work to get ready for a shoot, especially in my cramped apartment, can be a pain in the ass, I usually get at least one really great shot that makes it all worth it. I love going through my old photo sets and being reminded of things like that favorite pair of panties, my old apartment, those great tanlines. It's such a shame to think that I can't replay some of the hot chat sessions I've had lately. I would *love* to have a high quality recording of some of my hottest role-playing ones for just that reason. And to share with you, of course!

Webcamming

noreply@blogger.com (Kris Madison) — Thu, 29 May 2008 19:28:00 +0000

My housemates have all been out of the house this week with either work or holidays. I seized the opportunity to have some private time by plugging in my webcam and broadcasting my naked body to the whole world. Naturally!

I've been wanting to give IFriends a go ever since I first heard about it, but after a few hours last night, I was reminded why that chatting system annoys me so much. They have all of these great features, like the ability to set up a Fan Club (MISSKRISTY is my name over there) that's got archives of snapshots and video clips, but the actual show part is really confusing, at least on the chathost end.

There are 3 or 4 different programs I can use to run the chat. I went with the easiest one last night, Easy Cam, though it didn't feel particularly easy to my computer. Both the video part and the chat console froze a couple of times. Snapping pics for the archive worked sometimes, sometimes it didn't and none of it actually appeared in my archives until long after I'd logged off. Plus there doesn't seem to be any way to delete an image - like, say, the one where I'm half blinking. That one could go!

After I restarted my computer and logged in for the 3rd time, everything seemed to be loading smoothly. I wasn't getting any errors and was able to chat freely with a guest. What was still unclear to me (and I haven't been able to find anything in their FAQ either) is how I can tell who can see what. Guests aren't registered on the site, they're not paying to chat with me. So they should be allowed text chat, but that's it. Maybe a little preview window. There's this knocking sound when someone is looking at your room and it wasn't clear to me when they come IN to your room if they're now paying or not. Can I get naked now? Or does that mean I'm getting naked for the guests too?

I did have one chatter who bought a show with me, but I was such a noob that I didn't realize this until he typed, "I can hear you." Oh...I guess that means I can talk instead of typing! We chatted for a bit and then I started to dance a little, stripping off my lacy negligee. KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK! Gah!

There is probably a way to do things like turn off the knocking when someone is checking out my room or a way to only allow 1 guest at a time. I just haven't figured it out yet. I spent more time reading the forums and trying to figure out how to work the damn system than I did chatting with people and, you know, getting naked. *sigh*

Last night definitely made me appreciate the ease that is Private Camz. They have their own issues (mostly a lack of communication and payment hoops to jump through), but their system is very user-friendly. I'm not giving up on IFriends yet though! I want to try out some of the other ways to connect & I'd really like to try broadcasting using my HD camera. I still need to fill out all the stuff on my foot fetish profile, but I think the foot shows would be great using a high quality cam. Normal girlie shows? Not so much. Nobody needs to see every single shaving bump and stretch mark. ;)

Amateur Summer

noreply@blogger.com (Kris Madison) — Wed, 21 May 2008 22:07:00 +0000

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The sun is shining and that means it's time to break out the sunscreen for pale freckled girls like me. I actually shot this gallery last summer while I was staying at the No Tell Motel on Vancouver Island. The motel was perfect for the holiday - cheap, great location, pet friendly. But it was hardly the type of place you'd rent out to do a professional photoshoot.

I hesitated to post these pics (and the other set too), but I keep going back to them. They're like an homage to my amateur picture snapping days, the early days internet porn. Period. Back then most of the pics were stuff like this or worse. Grainy, unfocused shots of average people in bad motels or on tacky living room couch sets. There was always some of that terrible motel art hanging above the bed, personal items on the dresser, extension cords or piles of laundry in the background. Despite the low production values and unflattering lighting, it was hot simply because it felt so real. It was the complete opposite of the large scale storyline porn productions of the day featuring glamazon porn stars. Once the porn industry realized they could save themselves thousands of dollars by shooting gonzo amateur style, they started cranking out the content and the amateurs got buried under the floods of new movies, new girls. Anybody with a camera could start up the next porn empire.

This set, complete with my hairy bush, makes me feel a little nostalgic for those days. And happy to have been part of it.

I'm Just A Girl

noreply@blogger.com (Kris Madison) — Fri, 16 May 2008 23:33:00 +0000

Looks like I have the house to myself this weekend. My housemates are all off on weekend adventures and I've been quite enjoying the quiet 'round these parts until this afternoon when I got an extra dog dropped off for babysitting (which is totally fine - she's a million years old and no trouble at all) and then a phone call informing me that I'm going out for drinks tonight to celebrate my buddy's raise. He said he wanted to go sit on a patio, guys only. Apparently I don't rank in the "girl" category anymore! We've been friends for a long time, but come on. I'm still a girl! *pout*

It's warm enough to break out a sun dress, but my legs are sooooo white. I need to either get a tan in the next few hours or wait until it's dark out before I take my legs out in public.

Have a great weekend!

Hiking Pics

noreply@blogger.com (Kris Madison) — Mon, 12 May 2008 07:17:00 +0000

I snapped a few pics with my cell phone while I was out hiking with my mom last week. She's just like me, so we had great fun climbing around the rocks at low tide and searching for treasure. I've never seen starfish out there before and these purple ones looked amazing! Even more exciting, check out the octopus my mom spotted under a rock:

The pug loved it, of course. He just had a bath the day before grandma arrived, but after digging in the ocean and wading up to his belly, he needed another one. Nothing like wet dog mixed with dead fish smell!

Server Frustrations

noreply@blogger.com (Kris Madison) — Sat, 10 May 2008 17:41:00 +0000

You may have noticed my frustrated tweets over the last few days, so I thought it might be a good idea to explain what's been driving me batty without the 140 character restriction.

My websites (KrisMadison.com and BarefootKristy.com) are a one woman show. There's just me here. No webmaster, no server admin, nobody to help me keep my sites up and running, save from the occasional shoot where I'm able to convince someone else to get behind the camera for me. This fact used to be something of which I was quite proud. Now? I'm ready to admit I need help. My time would be better spent doing things like shooting new movies, not going through log files trying to figure out what's wrong with my server. I should be writing blog posts and responding to emails from fans, not writing up support tickets at my hosting company.

I apologize in advance for writing this whining rant of a blog post; I'm sure I'll read it with regret later. There are plenty of jobs that are a lot tougher than mine and I know that for the most part I have things pretty good. And if my sites made more money, this would be a non issue. I'd have a fully managed server and a tech guy because I could afford to pay them. But for right now, I'm stuck in the land of doing a job basically on spec. The money I've spent (OK, charged) on buying a dedicated server, scripts to run the members area, scripts to manage traffic, tech support by the hour when I need it - that's the stuff that eats up any profit my little sites generate. It starts getting really frustrating when I look at how much I'm spending versus how much is coming in. The fact of the matter is, I don't *need* a dedicated server to handle the small trickle of visitors my sites get. Especially when it means that I'm the one in charge when the whole thing goes down because apparently it's being brute force attacked so some password trading assholes can figure out how to download all of my content for free. I burned through more than 100 times the bandwidth that I usually do in 1 month this week before I figured out what was going on. Oh yeah, that's because I canceled the password trading service I used to use because I couldn't afford it. And that's what happens when the person responsible for securing the integrity of a server is *me*.

The benefit of running my own server is that I can run all the scripts I want and, back to that spec thing, when I finally hit the BIG TIME, when my sites get out there and become well known, then I'll be happy that I planned ahead. I can handle spikes of traffic (in theory). I just don't get any!

Meanwhile, as our hero waits for the elusive Traffic to appear, her credit cards are maxed out, her rent is due and she's starting to wonder if that BIG TIME is ever really coming.

I'm starting to wonder if all of this is ever going to pay off. And let me state for the record that by "pay off" I mean be able to live from month to month comfortably, without having to worry that if I buy myself a new pair of shoes I won't be able to pay the phone bill. I'm not talking lap of luxury here, just a bit of breathing room.

I love so many things about being self-employed, especially about running a business on the internet. But on days like today when I would really rather make art, take photos, even go to the gym instead of researching hosting options, it makes me long for the days when I got paid by the hour. Even at minimum wage I'd probably be taking home more money than I do now based on the number of hours I work! Of course working from home and getting naked in front of a camera doesn't usually feel like work, but that doesn't negate the fact that I never take a day off. Ever. At the very least, even if I'm out of town, I'm logging in to check my email, check my stats, maybe blog or post on Twitter, and always thinking, planning, composing future blog posts in my head, snapping pics so I can document what I did when I had a day off.

OK. Enough whining for one day! I need to get back to work. And by work, I mean masturbate.

Winter Flasher

noreply@blogger.com (Kris Madison) — Mon, 05 May 2008 16:20:00 +0000

I uploaded a new video today of me out flashing in the winter snow. It hardly seems appropriate since it's supposed to be such a warm, sunny day today, but that's what happens when you don't have a good organizational system for keeping track of your video shoots - you forget you even have them!

I taped a video when I shot the pink RHT stockings pics, so when I started to go through the tape to upload that video, I discovered this video, shot weeks earlier when we had that big snowfall. Whoops!

It's up now for members. And any volunteers for being my home office secretary are welcome! *grin*

Sexy Legs in RHT Stockings

noreply@blogger.com (Kris Madison) — Sun, 04 May 2008 05:41:00 +0000

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My new sexy legs pics are up for my wonderful Kris Madison members. I'm wearing a brand new pair of pink RHT stockings that one of my favorite long time friends and members bought me off my wishlist quite some time ago. I've been saving them for just the perfect occasion and it turned out that the perfect occasion was a day when I was feeling totally blah and absolutely unsexy. I knew I needed to do a shoot so I would have something to update my site with, but I was definitely NOT feeling my usual saucy self.

Opening up a new package of beautiful 100% nylon stockings? That was just the treat I needed to put a smile on my face. Of course, my hand in the panties didn't hurt either. *wink*

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Mama Madison

noreply@blogger.com (Kris Madison) — Thu, 01 May 2008 22:46:00 +0000

While we're on the subject of house guests, I almost forgot to mention the next one in line - my mom! She's flying in on Sunday, so my sister and I are working out a timeshare agreement. All I want to do is take her hiking; as long as we get good weather, I'll be happy.

I need to make her Mother's Day present too and get that ready. And I need to finish working on all of my updates for this week before I de-porn my house. Nude pics + my mom = major drama. So...back to work!

The House that Kris Built

noreply@blogger.com (Kris Madison) — Thu, 01 May 2008 22:07:00 +0000

You know summer is approaching when the revolving doors of Casa Madison start to swing. My buddy Kevin came out for a few days last week. He's been here before, but this was the first time without his girlfriend. He's been considering making a move out west, so I took him around, checked out possible places he'd like to work and took a look at an apartment advertised on Craigslist. All in all we had a good visit, but I don't think he's going to move out here, mostly for the same reasons I keep thinking about settling somewhere else - it's too bloody expensive!

I go back and forth on this quite a bit. I love living in walking distance to great restaurants, pubs, the markets. I would like to be closer to a beach (any beach) and hiking trails. Those are still a bit of a drive for me, but not so far a drive that it's not worth going for just an hour. Which I do, probably once a week. If I were to move to an area with cheaper rent, that puts me a lot farther away from that kind of stuff, which is pretty much the whole reason I live out here in the first place.

I also really do love my living arrangement in this house. It's ridiculously expensive, but the benefits are the community. I probably eat dinner with my landlord 3 or 4 times a week. We barbecue, he watches my dogs if I'm going to be gone for the night, we're friends. And when you move to a city where you don't really know anyone else, that's pretty important.

The downsides are there is absolutely zero privacy. My office, where I'm sitting right now & where I would like to be doing cam shows, has a window that looks onto the pathway that all of my neighbors walk past. Constantly. With their children. Window closed, drapes shut, they can hear everything clear as a bell. Inside the house is just as bad. I usually wait until I'm the only one here before I even attempt shooting pictures so that I don't get busted.

Now that I'm a bit more established here, I probably could handle living elsewhere and just coming over to hang out once in a while. But after living like this, I think I'd be looking for another house where I get to live with a bunch of people who look out for each other. Is this the new urban family? Without all the guilt and yelling? *grin*

Sexy Legs

noreply@blogger.com (Kris Madison) — Thu, 24 Apr 2008 20:23:00 +0000

Here's a sneak peek at my new photo gallery, Sexy Legs in Stockings, that will be up soon for members. Click here to become a member today.

I'm wearing a pair of 100% nylon RHT stockings from Secrets in Lace (thanks J!). I've been saving these stockings for ages now, waiting for a great location and the perfect outfit to wear with them. This set? On my living room couch? Was not that location. I've been feeling pretty blah lately, too much working at my desk and not enough working out, pale from the very long winter...just generally not feeling like my usual flirty self. So I figured if I'm already going to be shooting myself at home, alone, without even a photographer helper to tease, I deserve a treat to get my juices flowing! These stockings definitely did the trick.

I love the way "real" stockings feel right out of the package. These ones are a glimmer version, so they've got even more of that supple stiffness and make a fantastic scratchy sound when I cross and uncross my legs, rubbing my legs together. They fit perfectly too, which is important when you're dealing with 100% nylon stockings. No spandex means not a lot of give!

I'd like to do another shoot in these pretty pink stockings, one where I've got more room to stretch out and really show off my legs. Since I was working with a tripod and remote, getting up and down to change the angle, I didn't get nearly as many full length sexy legs pics as I would've liked to in this set. What I really need is a photographer who can back up and tilt the camera to get every inch of my legs in the shot. Much better than me crouching down lower and lower to keep my head from being cut off!

After this shoot, I've got that spring back in my step and am well on my way to feeling flirty again. I might have to take these sexy legs out on the town!