Weathering the Storm

Hello my little sweet peas! I've been having the craziest week that feels like the only thing left to happen is for my house to burn down. Knock on wood!

My site was hacked and a couple of member passwords were posted on a bunch of forums. Basically over the next few days, hundreds of people were downloading my entire site which means that my bandwidth charges went through the roof. My hosting company is charging me $963 more this month ON TOP of what I already pay for hosting. *cry*

I did cry actually. I stomped and cried and then threw myself into action trying to find somewhere to move my site. There is no way I can pay $963, so I'm scrambling to move my site to a new host before the old host pulls the plug on me. That's been taking up the bulk of my time this week, trying to get all of my movies and photo sets moved over to a new server, fighting with tech support, just generally fighting.

Phew. I'm exhausted. And go figure...2 days ago I got walloped with a horrible cold. I've been sleeping lots, drinking my OJ & trying not to overdose on Tylenol Sinus. My throat is all closed up and everything in my body aches.

Just as I was waiting for the locusts to come - Kiero, my lovey dovey super sweet love of my life, got hurt. I'm not sure exactly what happened, but we were going to the leash free dog park & she hopped out of the car, onto the grass & started limping. I looked at her paw to see if she had a thorn or stepped on glass or something...right away she started shrieking, the most horrible doggy yelp that stabs right through my heart.



She's been limping since Friday and as soon as I try to pick her up, she SCREAMS in pain. She can't get comfortable in her bed (or my bed). She keeps trying to lay down, but then is in pain so sits up again. I took her to the vet first thing in the morning on Saturday and the vet did a thorough check of her whole leg, her back, her shoulder and armpit, even her neck. Apparently neck pain can often show up as leg pain since it sort of shoots right down their paws.

Since the vet couldn't figure out what was wrong with her, we're hoping it's just a muscle pull. She's on pain meds for the next few days, but if she's not showing improvement by Monday, I'm supposed to take her back & that's where it gets really scary. If it's not a simple muscle problem, then it could be a tumour that's pushing on a nerve & causing the pain. *cry cry cry*

I don't know what I'm going to do. I keep praying to see some improvement because I'm sooooo not ready to let go of my baby girl yet. Seeing her in pain like this and not being able to do anything to help her is pure torture. And now I'm crying again!



OK...back to you guys! The positive upswing of all this is once my site is fully moved over to the new server it should be BETTER. It should be faster, have tons of space for adding lots more movies and I should have good tech support that can handle all of these kind of silly problems so I can just focus on making movies and chatting and YOU!

So. Hopefully I've weathered the storm and it'll be blue skies for the rest of...for the rest of my life! It can't get any worse, can it? Yikes. :)

Riding Dorky

As promised, there's me looking dorky in my pink bike helmet. I hate wearing a helmet at all, but since I'm not a fan of getting tickets and I'm bound to take a spill at some point, better safe than sorry, right?

My dad boxed up my old bike a few months ago and I've been riding it pretty much everywhere ever since. Granted we've had fantastic weather and I haven't been stuck in the rain yet, like I will be all winter, but I'm really loving the way the world looks from a bike. Mundane chores like picking up groceries or returning library books are pure joy when I get to feel the wind whipping across my face instead of sitting in traffic. I hate driving, I really hate being stuck in traffic and I really *really* hate circling around looking for parking. All of the things that get my blood boiling on a daily basis are removed when I'm out on my bike instead. I love it.

And yeah, it's worth looking like a dork.

Funny mom quote of the day

I'm thinking about taking my nephews to Crankworx in Whistler next month...waitaminute...this month! How did it get to be August already? Zoinks!

I don't know why I'm thinking about doing this especially on a day like today when I'd put the crank in Crankworx. I hate children. I hate driving. I really hate long drives with yappy children in the backseat, wandering around crowded festivals where bottles of water cost 6 bucks then getting back into the car and driving some more. Plus gas has been so reasonably priced lately. I've filled up my car TWICE this week. Guess why? Because I've been super busy and doing lots of running around? Nope! I work from home, silly! I've had to fill up twice because gas has been fucking siphoned out of my motherfucking car TWICE this week.

Do they still sell locking gas caps, btw? I remember a girlfriend of mine had a locking one on her old VW Rabbit. I predict they're about to make a comeback.

Anyway, my nephews are into mountain biking, I haven't been to Whistler since my grade 12 ski trip and clearly I could use some karma points. As I'm telling my mom about this & wondering aloud if I should just get a hotel room so I don't have to do all the driving on one single day she says, "Oh you'll never be able to get a hotel room! The Olympics start next week!!"

Ummm...the Olympics that are in China? Yeah, I can see how easy that would be to confuse with the winter Olympics that happen in Vancouver. Two years from now.

Finding Balance

I haven't been blogging much this summer, partly due to the ease of updating my Twitter page and partly a result of not having much worth blogging about. How much more can I say about apartment hunting? It's boring, it sucks & no, I still haven't found anything. I'd like to find something that ticks off at least 1 or 2 of the following:

- cheaper
- in a better area
- with more space
- with more sunlight

Every place I've looked at that has a pro (cheaper, for example) also has major cons (bad area, far away from the water, fugly). I continue to work Craigslist and continue to be spammed by Christian missionaries working in Africa who are happy to let me rent their 2 bedroom penthouse for only $1200/month as long as I courier my deposit to them directly. In Africa. Then they'll promptly send me the keys. Woohoo!

The other major time suck lately has been a much more positive one - making art. I started a painting class at the end of June and I've been really enjoying it. I have homework each week, plus I like to paint for myself too, so my kitchen table is usually covered with painting stuff as are my hands and elbows. Somehow I always manage to lean into my palette with my elbow!

I realize there are plenty of folks who follow my blog to see what I'm up to, more as friends than fans of my naked booty. There's a lot of crossover in those categories too since fans of my naked booty often want to see the whole picture of my life. After many years online, I have to say that it feels really good to have a new passion that is entirely unsexy, unrelated to the net. I'm enjoying keeping a part of myself *all* to myself instead of oversharing and considering every interest a potential marketing angle for my site. I like being able to step away from my computer and fully immerse myself in something else without any of the nagging I should really be doing _______.

Of course the tasks I should be getting done are piling up, but for the first time I don't feel stressed or overwhelmed by any of it. I'm looking forward to doing new shoots and videos instead of berating myself for not updating as often as I'd like to. Taking a break where I let my mind be totally consumed with something else feels restorative in a way that no holiday ever has for me. Even in the most beautiful of locales, I end up kicking myself for not being able to get a shoot in or not taking advantage of a great hotel room.

This probably sounds incredibly obvious to some of you; balance between work and non-work activities is a no brainer to most people. For people who share so much of their lives online that separation is a lot blurrier. I'm glad I found my way.

Kryztal Red's Sexy Legs

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No luck on the apartment hunting yet, but I did have some luck hunting for sexy legs photos courtesy of the vivacious Kryztal Red. Kryztal's site has been around forever; I remember chatting with her and her hubby on an old amateur webmaster forum years ago. I'm always delighted to rediscover sites I'd forgotten about, especially since so many of them close up shop and let their URLs redirect to generic link lists.

I was surfing some leg and stocking sites today to get ideas for future shoots of my own when I found this hot gallery of Kryztal in black pantyhose.


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If I'm going to be moving soon, I really need to clear out my closets, so a shooting spree is in order with all of the shoes, hose and outfits I'd rather not cart to a new place. I have such a hard time letting go! A girl never knows when she'll need a pair of chunky wooden heels or another fishnet bodysuit. Even once I've taken pictures in something, I still have a hard time getting rid of it. What about cam shows? What if I get a chance to shoot in a different BETTER location and can re-do that outfit? I know it's silly since the most likely "what if" scenario is what if I go shopping and buy MORE lingerie? Where will I put it??? Time to let go and make space!

Apartment Hunting

It's a beautiful day outside and I think I'm going to get off my computer for a bit to enjoy the sunshine. I feel like I've been chained to the dungeon that is my office working on a mainstream project (ie. no boobies) and constantly refreshing Craigslist for apartment rentals. I need to find a new place to live in a safe, quiet area that takes dogs and isn't ridiculously expensive. You wouldn't think this would be such a tall order, wouldja?

I'm starting to look at moving way out in the boonies, but then that kind of defeats the whole purpose of moving to the coast. Right now I live close enough that I can ride my bike to the beach. If I move somewhere more affordable, it will be at least a 30 minute drive (depending on traffic) & I know I just won't do it. At least not on a regular basis like I do now. I love being able to throw the dogs in the car and head down for only an hour. If it takes me an hour to get there & back? It will have to be an *event* to make it worth doing. And if I don't do any of the things that make living here worth living here, I might as well move back east where rent is half the price and I have family. *sigh*

I'm not quite ready to give up yet because I do really love living near the water, near the amazing forests and hiking trails. I love the climate, even our rainy winters. Hopefully the perfect place will come up today, with a sunny space for my painting studio, a patch of grass for the dogs to run around and in a friendly neighborhood. Or I'll start making a LOT more money.

Play With Me

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A new movie is up and ready for members and this one? Is a doozy. First of all it came in at a whopping 18 minutes and instead of editing it down into parts or deleting some stuff, I decided to just let the whole thing play out exactly as I'd filmed it. I start off by talking about my adventures in camming and go from there, teasing the camera in my short lace dress, showing off my legs in stiletto strappy sandals and eventually getting naked, hoping you're doing the same (strappy sandals notwithstanding).

Since the video came out at close to 150 MBs, I decided not to offer 2 different versions, but I think the 640 X 480 size is plenty drool-worthy. You'll have to watch and let me know! *hehe*